Wednesday, October 22, 2003 - Life's Been Good to me so Far

Okay, so I got called for set tomorrow - 7:30 AM - Victoria Park and Eglinton. I would have to wake up at 5:00 to be there on time - I woke up sick as a dog today so everything seems to be moving in slow motion (not just a krazy karaoke hangover, but FULL ON soar throat, runny stuff, phlem balls... yum.) STOP My agent just called and SET HAS BEEN CANCELLED, but they're still gonna pay me a bit AND I'm guaranteed another day on set. Life is good right now :)

As for everything else - I feel terrible that I've lost track of people and time over the last few months. It has taken me awhile to figure out what's most important in life, and I'm slowy beginning to pick up the pieces. That sounds much more terribly profound than it is. Really what I'm saying is that I've been going through the process of discovering alternative options to living life. I am slowly burying the life that I THOUGHT I would have and unearthing a life that I never thought was possible. Arg. That sounds even worse.

Okay, so LOTS of fun stuff happening in the next few weeks:

This Saturday at D's - Triple house party deluxe for the last time ever.

Tuesday, Skaryoke @ Cafe May - Costumes n' EVERYTHING.

Halloween Night - Work at the theatre then off to the house party smellin' like popcorn - yummy

WEll, I'm gonna go watch old episodes of Sex and the City now - I'm, truly, loving no TV at home; it seems like I'm utilizing my time so much better.

My foot is itchy.

Kate

Current mood: bouncy

Monday, October 27, 2003 - Arg.

Okay, so I'm still sick and tomorrow's Skaryoke and I'm just. whatever.

Was on set for 2 days - nice loooong days. I started coughing during one of the scenes and I actually had to leave while they were filming (luckily it was a funeral scene so it all looked believable). I got to work with puppets. Fun.

So, another dilemma - I made just as much in 2 days as I would make in a week at a "normal" job. A post production company called me about a Receptionist position - do I take it becauise I know the film industry is gonna be slow over the winter? Then WHY am I going to my old principal agent on Thursday if I'm even considering this, but I gotta pay the fuckin' rent, ya know? I just want to catch up.

I just want to crawl in a hole and.

K

Thursday, October 30, 2003 - Ow... ouch... uw.....arg.

That's how every letter I type with my index fingers feels - yes, my friends - I've rediscovered knitting. So far I have made nuthing, BUT a BEAUTIFUL scarf is on the way! I spent the ENTIRE evening knitting. I missed the entire Wedding Singer movie (well, not the part with Billy Idol; that would be a sin).

SO Bishop Allen is playing in Buffalo, New York on December 4th. Anyone wanna go on a little road trip?! I can't drive on my own, and I don't have a car, but I could be in charge of sandwiches and refreshing drinks.

Tomorrow night is that party - like - thing at my house (in my apartment?!) I don't even know what's going on. Anyone who's coming, if you could please provide a bag of chips, or some snack of some sort, that would make my dreams come true. Also BYOB.

I have to work at the theatre tomorrow afternoon and evening... Hopefully Joe will be nice and clean out the machine for me... although it might be his turn - who knows. I'm still not 100% sure about my costume, but I'm sure I'll manage to throw SOMETHING together... perhaps I could knit something up!! Nope. I like that, "Nope". It's the 2000's alternative to "Not".

Who's coming to the Royal Winter Fair with me this year??

EVEN MORE exciting, 1050 Chum still has Oldies Dances - I know there's one THIS Saturday on the Queensway, but I'm thinking' we're all gonna be too pooped from Friday, so we'll have to go to the next one for sure. I don't know if they're weekly dances, or what, but I've signed up for the newsletter.

I had my job interview today - the more I think of it, the more and more I like it. I don't now if I'll get it though because they know my old Boss and he was an ass and I kinda (sorta) told him so.

So, I still have no cable, but I discovered tonight that I do get channel 8. Drew Carey is my new favourite show.

My armpit is itchy.

xxxKate

Sunday, December 28, 2003 - Oh Dear...

I am back from a night out at Loon's with the gang - I am about to do something that will change the course of time/my life/the universe... I just have to remember all the reasons I'm doing so.

Kate

heyangel 2003-12-28 06:54 am UTC (from 65.49.69.136, via 66.185.84.75) (link) Select what are you talking about? (Reply to this) (Thread)

pathykat 2003-12-29 04:39 pm UTC (from 64.228.116.155) (link) Select Hey, I was deciding on the fate of my relationship. We've talked it all out and I guess we'll see how it goes from here. K

Sunday, January 18, 2004 - Loonie

Just got home from a night out with the gals - there is nothing better than sinking into the couch and letting everything that is everything take over your mind and conversation... Oh dear... this makes no sense, but that doesn't seem to matter so much right now.

The past week has been full of promising things that will make my "everyday" life that much more liveable/enjoyable...

You have NO idea... no idea...

A few days ago, I couldn't fathom a reason to be here, but now it all seems to make sense... It's not supposed to make sense... cuz what is "sense" and who are you to tell me what "sense" is, or what it's supposed to be... I guess it's something we're meant to figure out on our own... But please, don't figure it out too soon, cuz you'll be gone.

Tomorrow I wake up to a day of nothing. No where to be, no place to scurry off to... nothing to stand in the way of keeping in touch, or figuring out what's really wrong.

I'm still confused - how did it all become my fault, or is this something I've created in my mind... something that doesn't really exist at all...

I'm tired and my snack mix is burnig away the last trace of toothpaste on my bud.

Goodnight to all... I'm sorry.

Kate

Tuesday, January 20, 2004 - Sleepy Time

It has been 5 days since I started my new pact and everything is going according to plan. I thought I was incapable of holding down a normal conversation without it, but I proved that theory wrong with a 2-hour long catch up with my good buddy, Em. We even made tentative plans for tomorrow afternoon - hooray!

Okay, there is much more I would like to post, but the sleepy time tea has suddenly kicked in.

K

maya_jz 2004-01-21 08:36 pm UTC (from 65.50.26.73) (link) Select Your strength is admirable, babe. :) You quit smoking cigarettes like it was no one's business and now this. I realize you had some help, but you just make these things look so easy. And you obviously inspire people (read: Kirby, and the rest of us who are watching). Keep at it. You rock!

Thursday, January 22, 2004 - Hmmmmm

Okay, so I'm wasting a little time before I have to dry my hair and head off to karaoke. I'm working with a new guy tonight, so I'm a little nervous... I'm always so paranoid that he's gonna forget some essential wire, or the song books, or the selection sheets... oh shit... did I even ask him if he was going to bring those??

I wish I didn't feel so frickin' unsettled in my gut, myself... I wish I could be excited about things rather than counting down the seconds until they're done and I can be back at home.

Arg. I have no idea what to wear tonight - I'm thinkin' jeans (now that they fit again) but for the shirt, I'm at a complete loss...

Okay, my hair is at the perfect dampness for drying now.

K